August 15th, 2015 I Receive The Same

August 15th, 2015 I Receive The Same

The social differences that come with weight loss can be interpreted in different ways, good or bad. I've noticed how I'm treated differently at a healthy body weight. I attract more smiles and attention than I did at 500 pounds. And on the surface it's easy to fault the other person. But since allowing myself to dissect it a little further, I've drawn some alternative conclusions.

I believe it starts with me and what I'm projecting in any given situation. Let's be real, at 505 pounds I was fairly miserable most of the time. I didn't like getting out too much and if I could help it, I didn't. I was super self-conscious and my confidence level was extremely low. Doing what I've done and what I do for a living, I could put on a smile and show, as if it were a uniform--and get the job done, all the while projecting how I felt about me onto everyone else.

If I didn't like me, they didn't either. If I was judging me, they were judging me. If I considered myself grotesque, so did those horrible people! Perhaps a few might have been doing these things--I mean, some people just suck, sure--but I would safely bet 90% were never really treating me the way my self-loathing brain perceived.

I was giving some fairly negative energy a lot of the time. It's no surprise I received the same. And not necessarily bad things--just less smiles and much less attention.

I now walk with more confidence. The physical changes have made an impact, or course. The mental/emotional changes--the strength of perception and source of my self-worth and identity, have changed too, and it's really created a different, more positive energy around me and emanating from me. It's no surprise I receive the same.

I'm a firm believer in we get what we give. It isn't a flawless law of course, some get way more than they give and others still get short changed, receiving much less than they give. But on average and most of the time, we get what we give. If I'm now projecting something completely different from once upon a time, I shouldn't be puzzled by the different returns.
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I had a location broadcast this morning from a grocery store. The main draw to this broadcast was fire roasted Hatch Chili Peppers from Hatch, New Mexico. This is Hatch season, a short window every year when these world famous peppers can be found. I bought some near the end of my broadcast. After two hours of talking about all of the wonderful ways you can cook with them, I had to come home and give it a try. Lunch was incredibly flavorful; amazing, really.

Amber and I had a great dad/daughter night out. It was dinner and the big Sara Evans concert. We had an exceptional time. The best part is always found in how much alike we are in some of the smallest details, like what we notice and what we find humorous. Our sensibilities and sense of humor are almost identical.

My workout today was a walk/jog in the park, on the trail and in the sun. It really wasn't too bad. I've discovered the differences between real world terrain and an indoor track. I have a much more challenging time jogging outside. I'm making some great progress, though--and I'm confident I'll be ready for the 5K come the end of September.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
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